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I want to tell you that you can't satisfy yourself , you will always complain on all the things that you are having in your life . May be it's friendship /some relationship /your education and blah blah blah...

Once I was also not happy with my relationship because she cares for me alot , she was possesive for me alot . But the thing in her case was neither she used to talk with some boy because she was a girl and she didn't want me to talk to with other girl . That I think is wrong , But i will tell you one thing that she respect me more than her family members , more than everything and even more than GOD. In my early times of that relationship , I really enjoyed that love , respect and everything taht she gave to me . She admires me in any situation if she is stuck and she respects me alot . But I was unaware of the fact that noone in the future is going to respect me this much and the time when I broke up with her she told me "Shubham you will not find someone like me , who adores you this much". 

Now , in my current relationship everything is same just the girl with whon I am in relationship with she only thinks of her happiness not mine . She thinks about her feeling not mine . If I'll say yes to something then also she'll fight or if I'll say no to something then also she'll fight. She doesn't want me to talk to some other girl and pay my time to her but she used to talk with other guys of her knowning. So, the thing is she wants to be happy . 

In my earlier days, when I used to get angry I can shout in front of her (my previous gf) but now if I'll shout on her .She will go to that state where she will just cry on my high pitch . Now, whenever I become angry , I headache start because I cannot release that headache. 

What I think you never have to trust on someone neither expect something to someone , because you are on your own's kind being in a relationship is a good feeling but your life would be like a jail your feelings would like be a circus animal and your mind would be like a black roasted almond .

कभी-कभी तो ये भी डर रहता है, कि कहीं इस परशानी से उबरने के चलते, कुछ गवा ना बैठू, बहुत कुछ खो दिया है अबतक, कही उसकी यादें भी गावा ना बैठू

Signing out - 29 March 2023